{"id":911,"date":"2018-08-05T12:13:44","date_gmt":"2018-08-05T12:13:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/?p=911"},"modified":"2019-01-11T21:09:53","modified_gmt":"2019-01-11T21:09:53","slug":"despair","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/?p=911","title":{"rendered":"Despair"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-917 aligncenter\" src=\"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/despair-jpeg-200x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"200\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/despair-jpeg-200x300.jpg 200w, https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/despair-jpeg-140x210.jpg 140w, https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/despair-jpeg.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 200px) 100vw, 200px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>One month ago today, the world changed for my sisters and me, when Mop died. The word \u201corphan\u201d seems silly to apply to a 60-something grown -up, but it feels so real. The last person in the world who loved and accepted us unconditionally is gone. Sometimes, it feels like just too much to bear.<\/p>\n<p>In this past month, I\u2019ve been surprised to see that life goes on. As it should. But in the midst of joy and fun, a little current of despair comes over me. It doesn\u2019t seem like this could be real. I\u2019d give anything for just one more rainy day of Hallmark movie-watching with Mop.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>One month ago today, the world changed for my sisters and me, when Mop died. The word \u201corphan\u201d seems silly to apply to a 60-something grown -up, but it feels so real. The last person in the world who loved and accepted us unconditionally is gone. Sometimes, it feels like<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":917,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":true,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[7,9],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/911"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=911"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/911\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":953,"href":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/911\/revisions\/953"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/917"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=911"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=911"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melaniewallace.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=911"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}